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Wed, Dec. 29th, 2004, 05:32 pm
aggrivated_pixi: **********HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!*************

Everything I know someones done to someone feels as if its done to me. And I get pissed for them. Maybe I am also pissed at them for letting it happen so many times. I just see and feel the pain and it makes me want to jab a fork in my fuckin eye! I cant though. I cant stand by and let things happen. And I shouldnt hold so much anger and sadness and other bad feelings in.

I had to stop myself from making a judgemental, rude, and jealous comment today to someone. And it made me so miserable. Here I am being happy as hell.. And someone else is miserable or at least upset so I just start burning up inside from things I know thy have gone through and will go through for so long... I was breathing hard and enraged at just thoughts of what this friends going through. I want so bad to offer a better lifestyle to them, but it seems like its going to be a long time if not forever til thats gonna even register in their brain. I dont even know if they want my version of better. I dont even know if I am better.

Thu, Dec. 30th, 2004 06:53 pm (UTC)
(Anonymous)

Maybe your life has been full of drama and somehow your dramatic events have ceased or calmed down, so you take on other peoples drama's because you NEED that sort of feeling of stress.

Or maybe you lacked alot of moral support and nurturing when you were young so you in turn, try to mother, pay attention to, and love anyone who is having hard times because you fear that they lack the same sort of foundation of support or direction as you did/have.

Just my opinion...

Thu, Dec. 30th, 2004 06:54 pm (UTC)
aggrivated_pixi

Wow, you sound alot like a friend of mine.. =O LoL.

Thu, Dec. 30th, 2004 06:56 pm (UTC)
aggrivated_pixi

exactly how did you find this community?? :P Just curious!