Everything I know someones done to someone feels as if its done to me. And I get pissed for them. Maybe I am also pissed at them for letting it happen so many times. I just see and feel the pain and it makes me want to jab a fork in my fuckin eye! I cant though. I cant stand by and let things happen. And I shouldnt hold so much anger and sadness and other bad feelings in.
I had to stop myself from making a judgemental, rude, and jealous comment today to someone. And it made me so miserable. Here I am being happy as hell.. And someone else is miserable or at least upset so I just start burning up inside from things I know thy have gone through and will go through for so long... I was breathing hard and enraged at just thoughts of what this friends going through. I want so bad to offer a better lifestyle to them, but it seems like its going to be a long time if not forever til thats gonna even register in their brain. I dont even know if they want my version of better. I dont even know if I am better.